No answers

I know I am not the only person that has had an illness and has gone to doctor after doctor or worse, tried to get into doctors or specialist to only get delayed, and get no answers. I'm there now. I've been very dizzy when I stand, weak, fatigued, if I bend over I get a very sharp headache that sometimes eases when I stand and sometimes I end up having to take medication for it to ease. If I raise my arms above my head to do something they feel like they weigh 50 Lbs. each and I am so winded and my heart feels like it is beating very fast. I know this is not normal for me, but I can't seem to find anyone that will take all of this seriously and I am beyond frustrated. I am feeling defeated. Thank God I have a husband who is my rock. Literally! I feel guilty and like I am letting him down by not being able to do for myself and do the things around the house like I normally do. Oh, and to top all this off, the house that we have been having built for the last YEAR is due to be finished at the end of this month and I'm struggling to even pack one box. I'm sad and mad about all of this at the same time. I do not want to sit in a chair and watch my husband and family handle this entire move and me do nothing. That breaks my heart and makes me feel worthless. However, I have no choice at this time unless they can figure this out within the next 14 days. I can't even travel to NC to be with my sister and brother in love for his daddy's funeral service, because I can't freaking travel. Imagine how that feels. I absolutely hate it. I'm working, but I'm working from home. However, work makes me feel very guilty and there is a ton of pressure for not being in the office even though I can do my job from anywhere. It's just the culture of our company. Not saying it's right, it just is what it is. It's sad to have it be that way when they preach about taking care of their team members (all the time), but that's just how they roll. To give a small example of how this is impacting mine and Tebo's life right now. If I take a shower in the morning I can wash my body, but then I have to sit to wash my hair. Once I get out I have to go sit for a bit before I can do my make up or get dressed. I am winded, dizzy, and very weak. Once that settles I sit to do my make up. I sit for a bit and then I make my way back to the bathroom and re-wet my hair and sit to dry it. Then I sit for a bit and then make my way back to get dressed. I then sit a bit again and make my way back to pull the covers up to make the bed. I haven't put the throw pillows on the bed in over a month (that is NOT me). Once I've done all that I definitely have to sit as I am winded, dizzy, off balance, heart beating fast, and exhausted. It can take an hour or longer before I can consider getting up to do anything more. During the week while I'm sitting in between all these steps I'm working. It is the most frustrating thing to deal with (for me anyway). I've always been active and pride myself in how quickly I can get things done and multi-tasking. Well, for the near term, those days are over for me right now. That makes me sad and mad. I'm praying a doctor, any doctor finds answers sooner than later so we can address it and we can get me back on track and we can begin living our lives again. Tebo keeps saying he wants his wife back and I want to be back for him. I'm working hard on my own to get back, but it is obvious that this is not going to be something I can do on my own as much as I wish I could. Please pray for me, Tebo, and especially these doctors for guidance and answers. Please and thank you.