Surely I am not the only person that experiences this, but lately it seems to be more and more frequent. Do you have those days where it appears you cannot say or ask or even do anything right? Well, I feel like I'm on quite the roll with that lately.
I do think I could be juggling a bit much and taking more on myself than I probably should and that might be making me either more sensitive to these responses or quick to respond without thinking through the words and/or tone I am using. Either way it makes me feel like crap!
There are those that may not know me or how my personality is, but I am extremely sensitive to the fact that someone may be disappointed or upset with me or that I have made angry. I do not like being in that position. Yes, I know I can't always make everyone happy, but when I don't it eats at me like a horrible bug.
I love the people in my life and I would never intentionally EVER hurt them or make them feel bad or disappoint them, yet, I have found myself over the years and lately doing just that. I literally feel like I want to die when this happens. I know that sounds dramatic, but trust me, that is as truthful as I can be.
Needless to say I have had a couple of days feeling just like that and I will just have to get over it, because I'm certain I'm the only person being bothered by it. No one else seems to be phased.
How do I become that kind of person? Do I want to be that kind of person? Those are questions I do not have the answers for and my never.
Oh well, I guess I will just continue to do my best to make everyone as happy as I can and figure out a way to deal with it when I cannot.
