Thirty Four and Twenty Five Years

WOW! It's hard to believe that you would have been Thirty Four years old this year and you've been gone from this earth Twenty Five years this year. Both of these are big years and yet it still feels like yesterday and still feels like you are Eight years old. How is that possible. Oh, you know I have to give a little sunshine in all this, because Chadman would be so happy right now, because until next Tuesday you are the same age as he is. He loved this time of year from May 25th until October 19th where the two of you were the same age. LOL! That boy loved that time of every single year. I'm sure he is wearing you out right now and soaking in every minute until your actual day arrives and then he will anxiously await until May 25th again so he can start all over again. Ha! Oh RED, would you love Cohen! You would be the best Aunt Jess in the whole wide world and he would love you, but boy would you love him. He is such a doll. He is so close to saying Ammy. He is now walking and get this.... His first steps he took were on Sunday on the 25th anniversary of your passing. Your momma sure needed that little splash of sunshine that day and then she was visited several times by a butterfly. Thank you for that sweet girl. You have had perfect timing, as usual. You would be super proud of your baby sister too. she is such a good mommy and she is such a hard worker and taking such good care of herself and Cohen. She bought herself a house by herself and has a great job and looks like she may be getting a new job making more money. She is doing great! She is beautiful inside and out, just like you. Saying you are missed is such an understatement it's unbelievable. I'm really glad you and Chadman are together again, but boy do we miss ya'll. We would never want you here in pain, ever! Selfishly, we want you here, but we would never want you in pain or suffering in any way. I know your mommy misses you and for me, I'm so glad she has Jorden and now Cohen to love on. He has been such a piece of joy and grace for her. I have to admit, he has been a slice of joy for me too. Jorden and your mommy have been amazing to let me be a part of every part of his little life. I'm so grateful. You make Chadman give you a huge birthday hug for me and you hug him right back for me and tell him his momma bear loves and misses him and just know that your Ammy loves and misses you so much too. I love you big much RED.